Character interview: Ba-Pef by Ashlynn Mills

Arlo answering the question about Ba Pef with Ba-Pef sometimes cutting into his thoughts because you know it’s what possessive entities do.

 

  1. What was your first impression of the other character?

That he was a figment of my imagination. Something created by my own grief. I thought Ba Pef was my minds way of coping with being alone.

Tell them it was my voice that had you melting the first time you heard it.

This is my interview not yours. Sorry sometimes It’s hard to stop that inner voice from coming through.

You know you love it when I come.

Can we please get to the next question before I trade you in for a new possessing entity?

 

  1. If you had to compare Ba Pef to animal, which animal would it be and why?

His other form may be a bird, but he reminds me of something more invasive, more forceful with potential harm. More like an insect who burrows its way under your skin, making your body its home and spreading aggressively inside you.

 

You know you love it when I’m everywhere at once. No one can ever be inside you the way I could.

 

I’m pretty sure no one needs your input during my interview.

 

You always need me, Arlo.

 

  1. If you got a chance to turn the clock back to an earlier time, would you? When would you turn it back to?

At first, I wanted to go back to the night my husband was taken from me so I could find a way to not only stop the intruders, but so I could prevent Ba Pef from getting in. Now, things are different, and I wouldn’t change a single thing.

 

You and me forever. There is no going backward, only moving forward.

 

  1. If you could change one thing about Ba Pef what would it be?

Nothing. A man like Ba pef can’t be changed and never should be. You either accept him for all that he is or not at all. I embrace in all his flaws and imperfections. I use them against all my worse enemies.

 

You and I work best exactly the way we are.

 

  1. Do you have any regrets? If so, what?

Ba-Pef has taught me that regretting things is wasteful energy and in order to be where I am today, everything in the past would have had to take place. I agree with him. I no longer regret the night I lost Michael. It was the only way I could finally discover the truth and be set free. 

 

You’re so beautiful when you’re free, Arlo.

 

  1. What do you fear the most?

Losing the one thing who can offer me the best mixture of pain and pleasure. Only Ba Pef can ground me and settle my inner demons. I no longer know how to breathe and function without him.

 

You’ll always have me. You and me forever.

 

  1. What makes you happy?

I don’t feel emotions the same way as regular people anymore. Everything I feel comes from pain. I don’t need happiness. I thrive best off of misery and agony.

 

You feel more than you think you do. You have enough emotions for the best of us and it’s only through you that I can experience them. When you feel, you do it with your heart.

 

I don’t need you to answer a few simple questions.

 

Then I suggest you answer them correctly.

 

  1. What do you like to do in your spare time?

Dream.  It’s the only way I can visit Ba Pef’s house of woe.

 

You also like to get revenge on your enemies, burn everything that reminds you of Michael and push your loved ones away to make more room for the only person in your life you need.

 

No one asked you.

 

When have you ever had to?

 

  1. Name a song (or film) that you identify with in some way? What is it about that song? (or film)

Change (In the house of flies) by the Deftones. It explains my transformation after meeting Ba Pef, growing wings, and learning to fly for the first time.

 

We were always meant to fly together.

 

  1. If you had to compare yourself to food? What would you choose and why?

Something spongy and absorbent. Unable to thrive alone. I need Ba Pef the way a cake needs icing. I lack my full potential without my most important layer.

 

The most delicious dessert.

 

  1. How do you deal with it if someone crosses you?

I slowly make them pay by inflicting the worse pain imaginable.

 

It’s way more than they deserve.

 

  1. What do you want to be written on your gravestone?

Survived by the death of his husband.

 

Survived by the wonderful god who invaded his body. If anyone should be mentioned on that stone, it should be me, not him.

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